Inspired by all the recent summer planning podcasts (SHU has one, and also Best of Both Worlds) I got out my Summer Playbook that Sarah gave me last year. I was laughing because my writing in the “brain dump” section starts with “Why does summer never work out the way I plan??? Now I have frickin pinkeye…” Oh yeah, I forgot about that. Last summer had some real lowlights, including getting sick (in retrospect I think it was Covid) and jury duty.
Looking on the bright side, I did get a lot of reading done! I also took a road trip with my son, to help him drive from Texas to Chicago, and I got to visit my sister. Interestingly, I noted in my playbook that Paul would “only” be home for a month that summer.
Yes, two summers ago he was home for the whole summer. Last summer, a month, and this summer… not at all. He’ll stay in his apartment in Chicago and work, and also attend a trumpet conference. The next time we see him will be when we go up for his wedding.
I took a little time to decide how I felt about that. A couple years ago, the thought that there would be a time when he stopped coming home for vacations was so sad. But now, it just feels like a natural progression.
It’s one thing to have a high school student home for the summer, or even a college kid. It’s another to have a full-fledged adult hanging around. Paul likes to stay up late and I was always tempted to stay up with him. But I still had to work, so my whole schedule was thrown off. And the truth is, after about a week Paul was bored. It’s not really that fun living in your parents’ house again when you’ve been on your own for a while.
It’s natural to dread transitions like these, but the truth is, when I actually get to the point, I’m usually ready for it. Using that logic, theoretically I should be ready for my daughter to leave next summer???
Oof. So many changes.
Do you have any big transitions this summer?




One Response
It’s so funny when we look back at our diaries/notes/blog posts and see what we were feeling at the time. And how we feel those feelings all over again when we think about it long enough.
I’m not expecting any big transitions this year, but I think the next foreseeable one will be when my parents die. It’s inevitable and I’m not quite sure how to prepare myself. I’ve been hearing the expression “anticipatory grief” but it’s something I should read more about!